Its been quite some time, since I visited this place, may be i come here only when things are not going great. Life is being awesome till now to me for last few years. I love running at my own pace. Having said that she's always with me holding hands together. I came to Pune last year after her to stay close to her & achieve greater heights in career. She always wanted me to be with her, we laughed, shared, enjoyed, lived, roam and now about to depart again.
Like any other Indian love story of couples from different castes, we fought, we argued, we requested, we pleaded...at the end she gave up on my family...she hates them that's what she says. I don't know how to deal with it. All these many years what was so special and amazingly close to me wants to depart from me again to left me broken into pieces.
I don't want to live without her, i want to be with her with all her faults. I can handle anything but staying apart is in unacceptable to me.
'We'are ready to divide into I & You like it was never a 'We' before. Atleast she wants not to be 'We' anymore. I want to cry loud and hard. I want to leave this grief of loosing her. I always loved her with all ME throughout. But she cannot see that love anymore. She was always a dabbu and now also started being a dabbu, dabbu paisa that's what her parents named her once in her childhood & the name reached to me through her only. My dabbu paisa has grown to fight against me but but not for me. She herself don't want to marry me, that's what she says.
I fought with her, i argued, i roared...but she didn't listen. She is abided by some foolish myth shown by her aai baba that if she marries me then she has to live an altogether different life. Because maharashtrian and hindi siders(for them all hindi siders are biharis) culture varies a lot.
I disagree to everything and can agree to anything as long as she is with me. All my intellect supports only when she's on my side and no on the other. I called her to come & meet me but she denied, may be she fears if she meets me she'll break again & would not be able to hold her emotions anymore. Or maybe she has really forgotten everything in a day.
Hoping to bring her back. Love.
